Graduating College during a Pandemic

Dealing with fear and anxiety during the COVID-19 Pandemic

Today, I graduated college from my bedroom. I bought a new dress and it shipped here pretty quickly. I put on sparkly pink eyeshadow and brushed my hair and I felt really good about my outfit that no one will see (lol).


I watched my graduation like it was a TV show and screamed when I saw my friends’ names pop up. My computer was on 42% when my name was displayed on the YouTube screen and no one announced it but I'm just happy it wasn’t Comic Sans. 


Life has felt weird lately and I know you’ve noticed too. It’s difficult to put things into perspective right now because there isn’t one right way to deal with all the change happening in the world. 

As we all know, the COVID-19 Pandemic has now, and forever, changed everything. 


For some, it's a matter of life and death, or unemployment. But it is without question that for all of us, it's a matter of uncertainty. As this pandemic has taken everything from some of us - the Class of 2020 will not be forgotten.


It’s a hard position to be in as a college graduate during these strange times. I have struggled with finding my place in general, and now any place I’ve wanted to be, isn't within social-distancing-reach. It's hard to picture everything you’ve worked for, just subtly yet abruptly end. 


We are stagnant fish in a stream; waiting for the dam to break. Stuck fish. Out of work fish. Sick fish. Missing-someone-fish. Graduate fish. 


I thought I was too old to be referencing Dr.Seuss, but I also thought I was too old to wear pajamas this many days in row, so really who‘s to say? I read him a lot when I was a kid. And lately, I’ve been seeing the world as I did back then. 


As a kid, I always wanted to be a grown up, I thought it meant that everything worked out in your favor. I thought that being an adult meant that you finally knew how everything worked.


Lately, I feel like her again. I’ve been playing house, and yes I’ve been playing dress up. I’ve been trying to make the best of it. 


Being 22 in quarantine, I have realized a few things:


1. It really is the little things that matter the most. 

2. No one actually has their shit together. 

3. Some things are simply out of your control.


I graduated from Arizona State University with a degree in Broadcast Journalism and Mass Communication. I understand that losing a graduation ceremony doesn't even begin to compare to the immense loss that others have faced because of the pandemic. 


We will not ignore the devastation, the loss, and the heartache of this time. We will not ignore the pain of those suffering alone. But with loss comes growth, and with isolation comes reconnection. 


The class of 2020 will be remembered for a long time. This quarantine was a test of resilience and no matter which way you have been spending your isolation- you’re doing great. 


And to the class of 2020, we did it.

Written by, Maddy Crouch

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